so many things to blog abt.

first thing first, the idol fever is kinda over for me, believe it or not.
because it is getting boring and i have more important and urgent things on my mind.
nevertheless, thanks charmaine for monday night! i'll be waiting for the pics (:
this is one period of my life i'll always remember.
(actually i'm kinda embarrassed to post up the pics too)

moving on to the ranting part that i just have to make.
i tell u even as im typing right now, im pressing on to my keyboard so hard cos im so pissed.
ARGHGH!!!!
ya u could guess wad it is abt, sch and all that is making me all pissed like wad's new?
never hated sch this much till i contemplate whether i should turn up each day since it would be a total waste of time. i rather stay at home and study by myself.
yea i can just hear wad lay yan's gonna say when she reads this.
'u think u are so smart issit??? then.....' -yea think along that line.

for the record i never thought i was smart cos if i was i wouldnt have taken math, its the stupidest thing for me to do.
i never thought i was smart, i just rather not waste my already limited time.

crap, im still boiling over wad she said to me on the phone just now.
stop asking me why im not attending your lecture because isnt it obvious enough?
WOULD YOU JUST STOP ASKING THE OBVIOUS?
and yea stop asking me why im failing my math because if i knew than i wouldnt be failing.
its just too bad for myself.
not that i didnt know that i need to work on my math, not that i didnt know that its my fault.
the fact that i know its my fault and cant do anything abt it is just too bad kays.
thats what makes things so frustrating.
not that im not gonna try.
i just dont need u to bug me.
i dont think u know how to care, the right way.

dont rub it in by saying that its a simple test and bla bla, its so not helping.
if all u can say to me is all these things that i already know, and am already working on,which makes me feel worse,then i think u should just save your breath.

ultimately u dont have to worry for me, its my future and i'll deal with it.
MY WAY.
thanks for that attempt at caring(if it was) but its not creating a desired effect.