its ironic how i constantly get myself wasted on things i have no control over and
yet to things which i have the perfect control over, im letting it all go down the drain, by not caring not doing a thing.
its tiring to keep trying especially when i know i'll never measure up.
the harder i try the worst it gets.
sometimes telling the truth just does not help, because it gives the rest a chance to judge or look,in a different way.
seems like my greatest fear always comes true.
too much negativity in me.
maybe its just me and as hard as it's gonna be, i'll just keep trying.
and no im not blaming u or anyone else.
because at the end of it i'll get over this, like how i always do.
nothing's fine, im torn.
i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel.