Hopefully this new skin would prove to aid the change that should occur in my life.
yes me and my sad life.
sher thinks that my life is so sad it may inspire some to end their lives.
and according to her, this is suposed to be a much happier skin!
haha at least that made me laugh.
she never fail to make me laugh--
even though i may happen to be upset or worried abt something haha (:

anyway, i choose to forget that PTD's tmr.
i 'll pretend that i forgot to inform my mum about it,
and keep my fingers cross that the teachers forgot abt me as well.
but if anzar remembers, it'll be a different story and i will then decide again on what to do.

my mundane life aside,
this week actually went by quite slowly for me.
and jin cheng never fail to make me think about a lot of things.
things that do matter but i dont care enough about
and things that would reflect what kind of a person or faith i hold onto.

and just yesterday, i couldnt sleep because it suddenly occured to me how
much i miss a certain few people that used to be very close to my heart.
and in that few, lai kuan especially.
i recalled how muchh we used to tell each other.
and now, how distant we actually are.
she would probably be too busy with her life to even know the existence of this blog.
and im too caught up in my life to know what her plans are.
its kind of hard to swallow.

it makes me wonder if she still thinks of me too.
because sometimes it feels as though everyone had moved on a little too quickly
for me to catch up on.
i feel i need to come to terms with the fact that people will change and maybe i have changed unknowingly too.
and maybe if i do that, i will stop looking back at the good old times
and start snapping back to reality.

perhaps if i start thinking that, things will start to pick up.



'Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and walk with me.'