i do have a rather high regard of those who could bare their souls
and afterwhich are totally unaffected by what others would or might say abt how they feel.
in front of them or behind their backs.

how many can actually say and really mean what they feel?
and close the eyes to what others have to comment?

some may say 'oh heck what others think about me, i live my life as i wish. '
but truely, how often can we live our lives as we wish,
and how time and again when we say ' oh heck, i dont care whatever he/she thinks abt me' right after, we actually get worried about the impressions we leave with others ---yes right after.
alright, many may not agree but at this point it matters to me no more.
and i mean it.

truth is i am kinda like that.
and i guess i am bothered by the things that dont really matter.
but these things matters to me.

sucks. the way she comes and expects me to be there. every single time.
and exhibit her ' i am so ohsoawesome' attitude.
just dont come to me anymore if she dont treat me as friend.
or does she just come to me when she has got no one else to go to? thats seriously how i feel.

OMG i feel stupid and childish saying that and feeling this way.
and maybe u may think i am petty. and i cant help it if u feel this way.
but it really was. is . and will be bothering me.
and this time i know i am not overthinking.

its just that i really do treasure friendships. and good friends are hard to come by.

ok i hope it wont take me an entire lifetime to figure out that people come and go.
AND IT IS THE TRUE FRIENDS THAT WOULD LEAVE THE FOOTPRINTS IN YOUR HEART.