i ask myself why do i have opinions with people who rant and complain so much.
when i am like that most of the time too.
you can call me the pot that calls the kettle black.
i spend my yesterday thinking a lot.
maybe about things that dont really matter but still bothers me.

i wonder why am i like that right now, or maybe i have been like that for a long time
just that im unaware.
i can go on and on but at the end of the day i dont even get myself.
i dont even know what im really bothered about.
so many things that i cant think straight.
and come next day my life will still have to go on.
as if nothing has really bothered me at all.
or maybe more accurately, come later i'll still have to go study for geog.
and forget about everything that i have thought about.
and in time to come pretend that everything is fine.

i hate feeling anything like that.
especially when no one gets me and i dont even get myself.
oh God, do you get me?

huiting told me this.
'if you allow yourself to feel like a loser, u will be one.'
i see how true that is.
oh liwen stop going on and on.
ok im gonna stop here about all these, once and for all.

and move on.

alright i better start being more hard working
in order to make my cny break more well deserved.
haha i think i have been giving myself too many notsowelldeserved breaks this weekend.
spent a lot of time doing many online quizes.
haha thats one thing that i love doing when im down.
sometimes the results just cracks me up.

ok my mom's been making pineapple tarts after pineapple tarts.
i so smell (literal and contextual) the festive mood :)